Sierra is doing well. She has come a long way in the last six months. She can mimic sounds with more precision and she can put more syllables together. Today she was on a roll, so I grabbed the camera and plopped it on the table.
Watch this to see what I mean:
You can see she is coming along, but still has a way to go. I have been a little weepy lately. I am coming to grips with the fact that Sierra is most likely on a long road.
I think I have been in the denial phase. Not that I didn't understand that she had a problem, but that I was thinking it was going to "go away" faster. The truth is I'm sad. I want to talk to my girl, I want her to be able to talk to me. I think that her birthday is really starting to bring our reality into focus. Almost all four year olds talk. When she was three it was more normal to not talk. She'll be four soon, I sure hope and pray four is a year of healing. That she'd be able to spontanously speak and communicate. Lord, make that true for her. I know You can you are the great Healer you made her and you have a plan for her, a plan for a hope and a future.
She handles not talking fairly well. Sierra is a conquer and the sweetest little girl I could wish for. She gets frustrated sometimes and has a few fits. I understand that. I'd be so mad if I couldn't say exactly what I wanted to.
It is hard to know how much wining to allow since she can't talk and how to "wrap up" a conversation with someone that I can't understand. Lord, guide me to know how to be a good mommy.
Now I'm crying. :) But with a hope for her future.
The End
8 comments:
Great job, Sierra! I'm so proud of how hard you are working! Becca, I know it is long and hard and LONG and LOOOOOOOONG and HAAAAARRRRD. We all pray for Sierra to start speaking and for those synapses to form strong, permanent connections. I love you, and I'm praying for you.
i love the honestly of your post. thank you for sharing. You are correct in that God has a future and a HOPE for my beautiful niece. Nothing about this long journey will be wasted. Although difficult, this journey will produce beautiful things in your life, Peter's life, Sierra's life, Weston's life, my life, and many more. It is a journey of faith. God will not let you down. He's with you. I pray he will guide you while you are mommy to Sierra. Mommy is such a hard task, but you are doing a really wonderful job. It is okay that you are sad. Let those around you carry your burden alongside you. God will carry you....even if you do not feel it, He is with you each minute of the day.
Oh, and I think the video is AWESOME!!! She said a ton of words!!! Go Sierra!!! Aunt ShaSha is soooo proud of you!
Sierra has absolutely made progress. I have a pretty clear memory of Sierra when you all came home for the funereal and we meet up at mom's house that night. I was in the office room with Sierra and I recall my first impression of that beautiful 3 year old. Since I only ever talked with her via Skype, that was my first real in person interaction with her. So, from that memory to this video clip she has come A LONG WAY! So be encouraged. She is progressing. ♥
I love the video. Sierra is such a priceless treasure. She has made great progress. yes, she has a long journey. But one day you will be talking with your beautiful daughter and how you will cherish every word she speaks to you. God will not waste any of this, in your life and Sierra's and everyone's. Thank you for sharing your sadness and pain. We are here for you. We will pray and cry and laugh with you. You are my beautiful daughter and thank you for communicating your heart. I love you as big as the universe.
Press on and Jesus is holding you and touching you all.
Love Mom and Dad
I love you, Becca! I really feel the video does show significant progress in Sierra--even just from our time together in August. As a mom, sometimes the small steps are not real apparent, but to others not so intimately connected, there is change. Positive change. And I can see it. KEEP THE FAITH, my friend!! God is at work!! In you, in Sierra, in Pete, in Weston, in me. He is working to make us all more like Him and in His grace, Sierra will heal. I just know it.
Hi Becca! I so understand what you're going through. Josh is making progress too, but it's so hard to be patient. I can't wait to have a full on conversation with him either. It's definitely hard not to be anxious about it. I'll definitely be praying for Sierra everytime I pray for Josh's speech... Hang in there!
Thanks so much everyone!
Jayme,
I am so thankful for your comment and prayers I'll pray for Josh too when I'm praying for Sierra. That was a real encouragement to me.
Love,
Becca
Becca, thank you for sharing the video and your honest feelings! We are praying for Sierra and all of you. Right now she is making baby steps, but you never know when they might turn into longer strides and even great leaps! God's part is to do the work and our part is to trust! But sometimes the trusting and waiting is hard work! The whole family is waiting with you though! We love you!
Kerri
Precious girl.
Love you, Becca.
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