"may your troubles last as long as your new years resolutions"

Because I'm slow sometimes, the first time I read that, I thought, "that's mean." The second time I read it, I chuckled. Isn't that true? Pie crust promises easily broken,

However, I am hopelessly flawed. I need to change. I need to improve. Realistically.

Peter recently made an interesting observation, "being creative, cheap and clean is impossible." So true. I have so many projects in my mind. Beneath the veneer of wanting to be a "good housekeeper" and a woman who has it all togetether, is a girl who wants to paint a terribly unskilled mural on the wall, strap on a backpack and explore the world, and be the artsy fartsy that is deep down in there. Then two seconds later, it's the women who wants the counter cleared off and every speck of laundry either neatly put away or piled up and burned. :)

Peter, being my senior, nearly 37, has embraced his flaws and says that 's just the way he is and his is secure in that. I told him though, his flaws are more culturally acceptable than mine. He is someone who constantly likes to be busy in a world that values hard work and production. So his flaw of not resting when needed is far more acceptable than my flaws. Someone who wants to turn their back on order, neatness and create something in the midst of chaos is not acceptable, right?

That is why cooking suits me. I can create something right in the kitchen in the midst of the my messy home and it's acceptable because I'm producing something that must be made, dinner!

Anyhow, my friends, I feels good to be able to think again and write out my tangled thoughts because Peter, my love, is home again and playing Legos with my beautiful children. The orderly me has had time to empty the dishwasher, put away the breakfast tornado and throw in a load of laundry.

The artsy fartsy me sits here and thinks while I do these terribly mundane, yet necessary, things and then must blog. I must have Pandora going, I let me be me or else I die inside and am not who God created me to be. And guess what? That's ok because Peter knows me and still loves me and together we are a very complete person... Thank God for that.

Resolutions?
I want to learn more about photography. I have watched some lessons on YouTube and I am posting a picture a day to Facebook- not too hard. Kind of artsy, yet realistic.

Real change from the inside out?-- I want to read through the Bible with the church we attend here in Redlands, Trinity. They are making this years theme, "The Year of the Bible." A little guide has been issued called, "Route 66" a route through the 66 books of the Bible. It is realistic because there are only 28 readings a month and a reflection day each week- realistic because I'm behind already! There is a blog that gives a short devotional each day. The blog has a link to read the section there, or I can click on the button that says, "listen" and it will read it to me! Interested? Click here. There is a place to subscribe to the daily devotional (to remind me of this choice) and to print the route.

Happy New Year. May you be you and may you change in the ways you want from the inside out!